And it continues

As hard as I try, I can not stop that feeling. It feels like a big hole in my chest and hurts so bad. The pain, there is no way to describe it…it’s unbearable. The loneliness is never-ending and yet we go on. How? I can not answer that for it feels like I am floating in a world that doesn’t exist…… Empty. Just trying to get through a day just to fight to get through the next day. And no one seems to understand how after 4 yrs. I still feel like this. Grief has no time schedule. So when does it ends? It doesn’t, we just learn to accept and to live on with our lives. Changes are made, we are now a completely different person then we were back then. As a friend said to me after I made the statement, things are never going to be the same. He looked me in my face and told me I will never be the same. At that time I didn’t understand what he was telling me. But now years later I understand. And I continue writing my feelings and seeking for peace but  it has not been found. So I go on waiting my time to join my love and then we will be together again as we truly belong. And once again happiness will return. And we will once again be one. They say sharing is caring, so lets share and maybe we can help each other.

To my love I pray every night!

Xxx

Star Bright Angels

Patricia Folks Thanks this say everything, every night I pray to my husband letting him know it’s another day closer to us being together again, another day closer to us sitting side by side as we belong. I ask him to watch over me and keep me safe until that day comes and then I tell him I love him more then words can say and miss him even more. It’s been 4 yrs. and have done this every night since he has been gone.

 

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