Isolation – No One Seems To Notice,

Isolation

To set apart from others, To put by itself
To place or be placed
in QUARANTINE
Isolator….a noun…..that’s what I am to myself without even knowing


 

Yes that is what I did to myself and didn’t even know until I sat back and looked at my life and what it has become. It started around the date April 14, 2016. The first step I took was deactivation my Facebook account. I just got so tired of spending so much time with something that only made me feel even worst about the way my life turned out. I spent the first 38 yrs. of my life with the one and only true love of mine. Since his passing I have lost all will for life. My interest in life is gone, I just make it through one day just to get to the next day, wishing life away. At one point in my life I did not like to sleep, I slept very few hours at a time, I wanted to spend my life..”My Time” “awake” being with my love  Leroy  and that was Good, because I was happy and in love. But Now? I find miss mesleeping is a way to escape the pain of the hole in my chest that was created the day he passed taking so much of me and the best part of my life with him.  But no one sees the pain I still carry. So with that said, Facebook is nice, lots of friends but I need to go on.

 

Then more and more days I found myself keeping my phone on privacy mode. I would see if there was any activities going on with my phone liking receiving a text or a notice. But mostly I use my phone for reading my books from Amazon and Goodreads. My new hobby that gives me peace, a real satisfaction of some kind. But now I spend most of my time alone…in silence…enjoying my alone time reading. A new good feeling. And I kind of like being in my own world undisturbed, just me and Mickey.  Here is where I find my Peace.

 

 

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It’s possible to go on, no matter how impossible it seems, and that in time, the grief lessens. It may not go away completely, but after a while Its not so overwhelming. – Unknown

Cardinal – Love one sign?

They say, having a red cardinal come around you is a sign from your love one who has pass…they are near by. So for days after I seen this post on Facebook, I looked for my red cardinal but they never showed up, until now. Yesterday I spotted two birds up in a tree in my yard and I waited patiently for them to come closer. It was two bird, one was definitely was a red cardinal. They never got close enough to take a picture of. But then this morning they were back. This time they were much closer and I was able to get a much better shot at getting a picture of them. Cardinals, in the family Cardinalidae, are cardinalpasserine birds found in North and South America. They are also known as cardinal-grosbeaks and cardinal-buntings. Their color alone will put a smile on your face, they are a stunning bright red….so beautiful.  Red Birds – When you see a red bird in winter, you will prosper in spring. When you hear a Cardinal sing, your sadness will soon be lifted. When a red bird shows up, help is on the way. Giving credit to The Cardinal Experience. In my opinion they are in a beauty of their own.  And for the last two days I had the pleasure of citing these beauties in my yard. A Cardinal loss – A cardinal loss is the loss of a life, and human life is something that cannot be restored or replaced. Most important, cardinal element in life is life itself

Love the Cardinal Experience . They also have a very good page on Angels, visit them here…….

 

 

 

this is where is sitting on the wires above my yard.

this is where he is sitting on the wires above my yard.